Today at church, was Fast and Testimony. They are
usually held in each congregation of the Church as part of the sacrament meeting on the first Sunday of each month, it provides all members the opportunity to bear testimony. In these meetings, any member who desires may stand before the congregation and testify of the things he or she has learned to be true through trying to live in the manner Christ has taught. Members typically come to these meetings fasting, abstaining from food and drink for at least two meals. My first time to a Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, had to have been the 5th of March, 2006. The missionaries started coming at the beginning of February, my first meeting was a Fast and Testimony, so that sounds about right. Elder Hoy warned me that I might find it to be a little strange. We sat in the middle section, on the left hand side, in either the second or third row. I haven't sat in the front of the congregation since Athens. I didn't know what to expect. People would get up and talk, a lot of the times they would cry. It drove me crazy how often a person would end up crying. I found it strange that they would say "I know this is the true church." I thought they were trying to convince themselves of it, so they made sure to say it out loud. One guy talked about getting a blessing because he smashed his thumb. I thought, how ridiculous is that. Then again, you'll have crazy members in any church. Afterwards, they had a pot luck to break the fast. We did not know, that we should've had plates and silverware but there were extras that we used. Leaving church that day I did not have a strong opinion of the church. I continued going because I was asked to go, I was curious and I was Courtney's ride. It was interesting learning about the church but I wasn't taking it seriously or wanting to know if it was really the true church. We all know where this story has gone, I was baptized on October 8th, 2006. My favorite meetings in church are Fast and Testimony. I am a story person, stories are behind what makes a person who they are. Members hates, what they call, storimonies. The point of Fast and Testimony is to say what you know is true, not to tell a story of what happened last weekend. I, on the other hand, enjoy MOST of the storimonies, if they relate and have a good point.
Today, I was planning on bearing my testimony. I've been a member for over two years and have NEVER bore my testimony on Fast and Testimony. At a Halloween party, two years ago, a kid asked me if I would share my testimony with two investigators, I did not do it. My friend, Stephanie, always tried to get me to go up and bare my testimony but again, I refused to do it. Last month, I wanted to bare my testimony but, yet again, I stayed in my seat. Today, I stressed all day about baring my testimony, getting up in front of the entire congregation and telling them how I feel and what I know to be true. I don't express my feelings to one person, let alone 150. Why stress myself out about this? Not only is baring your testimony for yourself, it is also for those listening. I teared up several times today listening to members give their testimonies. Our testimonies grow from hearing others'.
I wanted to get up there because I have a testimony of the church. I would not have become a member if I did not know that it was true. I sat there watching the clock, making sure I had time to go up to the podium, hoping I would, and crying, of course trying not to, because the church means a lot to me and I am glad that I am a member. I am thankful for missionary work, which I'm horrible at. If it wasn't for missionaries, devoting 18 months to 2 yrs of their lives, sharing the gospel, then I would've never know what I know to be true today. There are so many things about the church that I love. I know that I have been blessed because of it and am very thankful for that.
This is a dorky things... but.... Today, I was jealous of one of the girls, Mickie. Her husband teaches Sunday School and said how he spent the week studying the lesson with his wife. One of the things that I am very excited about is being married and learning, really studying, the gospel with my husband. I want to marry someone who has a strong testimony and knowledge of the scriptures and will study them with me. There is so much that goes along with that topic, that I'm excited about, but that's one of the reasons of why I was jealous. One day... right?!
I posted the video on the wrong blog... I tried doing it 4 times on the other blog but did not have success. I'm not going to delete it from here b/c I'm scared it won't post on the other one and it takes FOREVER to add!